I learned along time ago, never to question god and his actions, it will only drive you to a point where pain,hate, and angry only can grow. we all know we won't live forever but we are still unprepared when we lose the wisdom of a grandmother, the laughter of a child, date nights with a lover, or late night talks with a old high school friend. We ask why THEM with no answer. People console you and with it brings no relief. Angry appears and with it hate grows. But if you believe and trust in god or who ever you pray to, things will be fine. The missing their hugs won't go away but knowing they are at peace should ease the pain a little. With the lost of my grandfather, my grandmother, my father, my son, a few aunts and a few cousins I have learned to cope in my own way. Yes i still can't watch LIFETIME because it reminds me of my father and yes every time my cousin favorite song comes on I tear up but Believing that things happen for whatever reasons unknown helps me cope just a little. Even with knowing my wounds will never heal.
